Faith outweighing your fear
Does your fears dictate your life? Do you stop yourself or not even start because you just have an over abundance of fear telling you all the reasons you can’t do it? Well let me tell you fear is a tool that is there to tell you that you really want it. If you are trying to change your life and your not scared then you are doing something wrong. But that is when you have to take charge and seize it. Even if you are scared, even if you are uncertain, even if every cell in your body is like NOOO don’t do it that is when you have to ignore all of it and push through anyways.
For over a year and a half now I have been wanting to expand my business. I literally have been wanting to move my office for some time now but what popped up? Fear. I couldn’t believe that I was capable of it. I kept saying I need to, kept saying I have to move but no matter how many spaces I checked out I still felt nothing but fear bottling up. At first I thought about opening a grand spa but I wasn’t ready for that yet. I want to get to that point of opening a huge wellness center but I needed to pull back in order to build myself up. (Remember brick by brick we build ourselves up.) So pulling back I started to think about what I needed for a space. I checked out a few chiropractors and almost went into one space that I am certain would of flourished but I was jumping ship from one windowless room to an even smaller windowless room. As much as I liked him and his ideals I had to decline because I finally realized that what I wanted was to expand my business not just rent a tiny room anymore.
So after checking out a dozen places I started to lose faith it would come to me. That is when I began to think about what I wanted to it to look like, feel like and put it out to the universe. I wanted it to be in a house on the second floor. I wanted lots of windows and for it to feel light and bright and nurturing. I wanted the option of adding other things like sauna, yoga, meditation, and another room. I wanted to have other businesses in the area that fueled my dream of wholeness and nurturing. And that is what I found. My new space is in a house on the second floor. I have a loft for a meditation space to hold meditation classes and seminars. I have room to build a second room, and I can decorate anyway I see fit. Oh and the windows!!
When you start getting in alignment with what you want to create for yourself and step toe to toe with the fear then that’s when the universe provides. While checking the space out I started to imagine what I wanted to create and my heart started to sing. Then a few hurdles came up and the fear overtook me. Stay where you are safe, you are doing well there, why change it all now, you could loose everything. That’s when the pressure I put on myself sky rocketed. I put all the things that I had to do for this place into 1 week rather than spread it out over the 2 months I have to prepare for it. I chose to move in May for that reason and to allow my current place enough time as well. But the overwhelming fear of can I afford this, will I make ends meet. Will I be able to be the boss I know I can be. Can I really hire someone else? I think about my first spa gig anytime I want to expand. My boss was mismanaged, never paid me and expected me to run her business for her. Now I am not hating on it because I learned so much from that experience and am grateful for it but my fear was can I afford to pay someone else. I never want to have anyone not get paid for over a month. Can I be better than she was to me?
The fears that kept telling me Hope you need to just stop thinking your some badass boss were overwhelming to the point I had a break down just recently. During that time I finally broke free of those fears and said FUCK YOU to them. I am not my old boss, I am Hope and I am a badass boss bitch with skill, talent and knowledge to build my business. By letting that old belief die off I am raising my vibration to embrace the challenges that arise because they will happen and do so in a way where my faith outweighs all those fears. Now how do you get past the fears?
Fear is an instinctual, primal response to stimuli that illicit a response to flee or fight. But as humanity has evolved through technology and society those fears are much different than the ones of our ancestors. There are real fears like your life being in mortal danger, then the ego fears that keep you inside your tiny room. The Ego-ic fear is the one I am asking you to challenge and question. This is the one that stops you from opening up your pottery shop and teaching people how to make their own dishwares. So how do you put that ego-ic fear aside and step into your own brilliance and courage?
1. Talk to yourself like its already yours. Believe it until you know it in your being. I know I will be a millionaire. I attract money everyday and am abundant in my business. I offer a service that is an expression of love and care. I spread love and healing and attract plenty of those in my life.
2. Be grateful for everything. This includes spending money to brand your business. I am grateful that I am paying an expert to help me brand myself. By giving them money I help them pay their bills and put food on their table. I am grateful because their work will allow me to work on the other aspects of my business. Make that gratitude a ripple, you pay them for work, they help their family. You now have more time to work on things you wants which brings in more work for you. Gratitude is a ripple and a wave. It goes out and reaches so many and comes crashing back in.
3. Research!! Take little steps daily towards your goals. Maybe you research where to source your clay from one day. The next maybe you do a budget. The next maybe you look on how to set up a dba or some sort of business account. Take one tiny step daily by looking up and researching your goal. Ask people who have done it. Interview them. Interview people who are more successful than you are. Not slightly more but who are way more than where you are. Ask others for their input. Little steps.
4. Grab some post-it notes in your fav color and every time you are afraid write down instead why you are courageous and you can accomplish anything. Leave them in places you go to often. Refrigerator, bathroom, bed, etc.
5. Put your arms in a superhero pose at your side, look in the mirror and compliment yourself for 5 minutes a day. Yes it may seem cheesy and feel awkward but eventually you start to see your true brilliance and how those things are true.
Fear doesn’t have to run your life. You can push past and fight it with all you got. It sure can be crippling but would you rather stay at a dead end job, unhappy and have a 401k for retirement or would you rather create your wealth now and life now? Don’t put off living because you are working to live. Live right now by embracing that ego-ic fear and tackling that little monster to the ground. You only got one shot at this life. How do you want to live it?
Today was a 10! Spa day :)