Embracing the powerful
Today was the first day in a long time I did a high intensity work out. I was already a little fatigued from the strength part of my workout but I wanted to push myself further than I have been lately. Charging like a rhino! So there I was in the middle of this workout and my mind wanted to quit. I wanted to say fuck this I can’t do this. That story started playing in my head and it didn’t just start with quitting OH NO, it got darker. I thought about my new space and how I am feeling overwhelmed because of cost and was like why am I doing this. I can’t do it, I’m just a joke, I’m this, that, whatever mean thing started to echo shrieked loud. This is the fight that I have spoken about in past blogs. The moment the workout turns from focus and movement to darkness and madness, that is what I call the fight.
So there I was in the middle of that when I pushed harder on the bike and closed my eyes. I can do anything. I am more than this. I am a rhino charging. That’s when I shifted the story, fighting the demons. That is when I felt most powerful. Sweat pouring down my body, counting every round, every second, wanting to do less or half ass it but instead pushing harder. When do you feel most powerful? For me it’s when I push that story of self doubt, self hate all the negative self talks aside and love on myself harder and more fiercely. It’s the moment I prove to myself that yes in fact I can!
Feeling powerful isn’t just about strength and pushing weight you never have before. It’s about feeling in alignment with your true self and knowing anything is possible. It’s that feeling of confidence bursting from within and exuding out into the world. Its about creating an impact for yourself by shattering that ego of disbelief and living in your power. It’s about seizing your personal power and embracing it. That is what being powerful is all about.
There are laws to create personal power.
The first one is Ownership. This means that you are taking complete responsibility for everything in your life. This means understanding your emotions and not feeling powerless to them. Instead realize those emotions may be triggered by your environment but you get to chose how you engage with them. It’s okay to have emotions, but letting them dictate your day, your mood, your life is giving away power to those things outside you.
The second one is Focus. If you are so focused on what you can’t do then you won’t be able to do it. Your focus becomes powerless and thinking constantly about the things you can’t control. But those people who empower themselves think about how they can improve their situation or their experiences. Which one do you want to stay stuck in? Powerless or empowered?
The third law is self awareness. When you are powerless then you tend to be free floating, impulsive, not truly understanding your own capacity to reach your goals and dreams. There is a autopilot motion that goes with this, but when you are standing in your power you understand your true potential. You understand your choices, emotions, and environment around you and are able to use it to your benefit.
The fourth law is self-regulation. When you aren’t able to regulate modes of yourself it can look like all out anxiety or depression or anger. This self-regulation means to be in control of the mode, like “work mode”, “exercise mode”, “creative mode” instead of derailing with negative self talk or doubt. This is a combination of the first 3 law whereas you take ownership of yourself and your emotions, focus on the task at hand while being self aware of all the obstacles and hardships you may face and pulling resources from yourself.
Once you are operating with all four laws then you create personal power and that can make you feel powerful. Not everyday is going to be a cinch at owning yourself, there are going to be things that just come up and slap you down but getting up instead of giving up is powerful as well. I’ve learned that not everyday is going to be amazing and awesome, there is going to be days where I just have nothing left in the tank. That is completely okay, just don’t give up or turn into this poor pity party monster who thinks they are worthless or can’t do anything right. (I know this feeling, that monster is real) Just know that you don’t have to conquer the world everyday or have a plan, some days just getting up and finding a way to be grateful is enough. We are all going through things, if someone pretends life is great all the time and hides behind their mask don’t let that shit bother you. That is their journey, stay in your own lane and you will be totally fine.
So tomorrow my friend wake up and find gratitude for yourself. Find reasons to be confident. Put on a pair of sexy boots and check yourself out in the mirror. Feel powerful in them by embracing all parts of you, even the ones you don’t like. Go for a run and fight your demons, or talk to someone you wouldn’t have before. Give yourself opportunities to step into your power instead of slinking down into the pit of despair and devouring all the sugary garbage. Trust me you got this! Believe in yourself and that will help you shine!
Today was a 7.