Destination to Responsibility
Where are we going? Will it be warm? Will it be cold? Is the destination an actual place or is it just the place you arrive after the journey? In terms of progress the destination is something that seems to happen overnight to the outside world, but all the work put in, the effort, the tears, it took time. So where is it you want to go? Not just a goal or a dream, what are you actively pursuing everyday. The ups, the downs, the rollercoaster ride of passion? Do you even know?
This year has shown me the lows, but it has also brought me to a new place because of it. I had no directions in the beginning and because of that I found myself just stuck, scared and feeling very alone. When I started to come back and take charge I found out that being in that place showed me exactly where I am going from here on out. I pushed harder, took leaps, and continue to do so. Sure I have fears when it comes to those but it doesn’t stop me. It never has and never will.
I had a conversation with Nick today when it comes to people and why some people chose to live the life of a victim, and why others see their own shit, their circumstances they created and rise from it. What is the difference? I thought about it hard because me well I’m one of those people who use to wallow when I was younger, but always took a chance to grow. Then as I did that I learned and have been rising ever since. So what is the difference between me and someone who continues to stay in the muck, and the shit of their life?
Well I fought my demons, got meaner then them. I questioned why I allow what I get and took responsibility for what I created for my life. I think besides it just coming from within, this desire to never fail, but there is this moment where you have to chose, do I take a chance on myself and see if I can do it or do I stay out of fear. And what I did was take the leap on myself. Every time I did that I grew, every time I failed I grew from it. Sure sometimes I get down but I never let myself stay there.
What I meant about people who stay the victim, I am talking about the people who are 70 years old and still blaming someone else for their lives and how it turned out. I’m talking about the 50 year old who blames the world instead of taking control of his life by taking responsibility. RESPONSIBILITY is how you rise, it is how you gain control over yourself, it’s how you respect others and empathize, it is how you live your life becoming better. Every moment I take responsibility for myself, if I’m not speaking up that is on me. If I don’t move forward that’s on me. Everything I do is up to me, everything I don’t its on me as well.
The way I see it those who rise take responsibility for who they are. They take responsibility for their actions, emotions, feelings, and start to forgive themselves, the past, and whatever it is they need to forgive. They stop giving away their power to the past, to the same story or paranoia or hurt, or fear, or trauma, and they take it back. The destination after you do that is self empowerment, self worth, and self love. You don’t allow yourself to fall down and keep being full of drama, full of addictions, full of whatever it is you have going on. That is the difference between someone who stays stuck in their story never growing, never changing, and someone who changes and grows into their own.
So where are you going? Will it be warm and toasty full of light and love? Or will you stay in the same place, in the hell you created for yourself because you believe it’s happening to you instead of for you. What can you do then? Self reflect, seriously!! Think about the things in your life not working and then make active pursuits in order to change them. Own the things you are creating even if you are potentially the “bad guy.” You may be the asshole, take responsibility for it. By doing this you change your destination.
Today was a 10!