Took a spa Day
Let me tell you being a massage therapist you get to help people with their injuries, tightness, stress, anxiety but rarely do you make the time for your own self care. Now I have had massages here and there and don’t get me wrong they are great. It’s just not enough for me to decompress and release all the built up sludge on my body. That is why I made a decision to have a real spa day, and boy was I beyond happy I did.
The day spa was exquisite, with a wide range of amenities such as large mineral outdoor mineral pool, sauna, steam room, showers, and tranquility room. This isn’t a get in get out type of spa, but one you spend the entire day at which is precisely what I did with my partner. Now I rarely drink, it’s just not my thing, so when I went outside to the mineral pool and this lovely woman greeted me and offered me a drink I was like wait what? Most day spas I’ve been to don’t have cocktails or wine, they have tea and flavored water. So I jumped on this opportunity and commenced to day drinking in the heated pool. It was perfect, the scenery with the most spectacular knotted bare trees, the architecture, the little lion spouts that shot water into the pool, it was so relaxing. Which got me to thinking about my own space and what I wanted for myself.
For a little over 3 years now I have been in a loud, sometimes obnoxious space that doesn’t really boad relaxation and for a while I haven’t been happy there. I am ready to talk openingly about this, I’ve bottled it in and walked on eggshells about it but I am tired of being stressed from it. You see I work in a Crossfit gym, and it’s seen it’s share of comings and goings. The drama that can occur I hear about, the gossip, the crap, it enters my room and it puts a bad taste in my mouth. I try not to become biased or judgmental and at times it can be damn near impossible, especially when I get to witness things first hand. When this enters my space, along with the loud music, the weights dropping, the yelling, it sends my body into sympathetic fight or flight mode. I have become so sensitive to my surroundings over these past few years that having this be a part of my everyday has caused me a lot of anxiety, which in turn makes me feel uncomfortable and reclusive. I’ve seen things I don’t care for, and when I am a healer who is trying to provide a safe and secure and nurturing environment I feel quite put off to my passion. I love what I do, but I am ready for a change.
So for the past year and a half my stress regarding this has caused me to be a ping pong ball of back and forth, fear, anxiety, make it work, leave. I built myself a following and I know they will follow, but its hard to say goodbye to a place that has also brought me so much joy and success. I also have a bit of fomo in regards to this as well. But I know in my heart it’s time for me to leave and having this spa day showed me what I can create and do. Being in a space that was beautiful, warm, welcoming and relaxing allowed me to finally accept this truth. It allowed me to see I have been trying to fit a square peg in a round hole. Sure do I have some hurts from that place yes of course, but I also have a lot of gratitude for it as well. There is more out in this world then the windowless room I allowed myself to be cooped up in surrounded by an energy I’m not to fond of. I want more then this, I want to build an empire and help people change, but I first must be the change I want to see. I can’t help anyone when I can’t help myself.
I am challenging myself to stop hiding my voice, my feelings, and my life. I am an independent, beautiful, successful business woman and I demand better of myself. I’m a badass woman with more faith then fear and I will rise to greet the road and roar. This is why self care is so crucial for our lively hood. Because I got to rest, rejuvenate and recharge my life and myself I got to find my answers. I got to accept my truths, and I am not running away because I am scared of what others will think. I built my life. The blood, sweat, tears through trials and tribulations both professionally and personally have given me so much and I am tired of giving away my power. Especially to those that seem to see me as secondary because I am a damn priority!
I hope my friend you get to have a spa day for yourself. I find that for me to have selfcare warm bodies of water are a requirement. Sure massages are great, facials too, but nothing beats water and its healing properties. This is what resonates for me, perhaps your modality of self care is going for a hike, or going for a run. Me, I need a bath, or a hot tub so that I can melt all my troubles and sludge away.
Today was a 10+