Resistance
So I read this great prompt to do today while golfing. I thought that I would talk about it and use it as my entry this evening. So a question you can ask yourself is, one thing I am resisting in my life right now is? I want you to really think about this question. Allow yourself to think about all the things you want to accomplish, all the obstacles in your way, and all your patterns and cycles. Get honest here and really dig into yourself so that you can understand what you are fighting against instead of creating abundance. Then once you know what it is I want you to ask yourself, I’m resisting it because and fill in the blank. Really understand where the resistance is and where it is coming from. Is it an old belief? After that I want you to then ask, what that brings forward in me is? Meaning what could allow you growth in the face of resistance. How do you face it head on?
For me a huge bit of resistance that is part of me right now is believing I can excel forward in my career. Lately I have been dabbling in magic again! I am a wizard after all but with this pandemic I just am uncertain of what the future holds. I keep trying to believe that this or that will happen but my gut tells me wait. So my resistance is being patient and taking my time. I feel stuck in this whole pandemic just like you and I just want to stop feeling trapped in it. This comes up a lot for me and I believe that this resistance is there because a feeling of a lack of control. With 2020 being the way it is I know for me I have felt like I haven’t been able to gain control over my own shit. Then what can help me to move forward? Patience in all things.
Learning patience and being consistent with it will allow me to understand that we all go through slumps. There are great moments then there are some that drag and then some that are just awful. To just be here now and accept that progress can’t be made to the next step without first understanding what that is or where I want that to be. And to do it without judgement, OH LORD! That would be a true blessing. Judgement is a hard thing for me to overcome, and I am sure I am not alone in this. Like today during golf I went alone, because I wanted to go so badly. So there I rushed each hole, each shot. Not having fun like I did and being to serious. Messing up and allowing it to go to my head, but I didn’t let it discourage me or get me down! So yay to that! But because I didn’t give myself patience and was scared of being judged by others golfing I succumbed to shooting like a pompous ass. Lol.
So next time I go I am going to challenge myself to just have fun, take my time, breathe and laugh! Oh and talk out loud and to my clubs! Who really cares what you do? But fear man, that sassy mofo will really get in the way of your greatness. And I let my fears dictate the game today. But I went by myself! I’ve done that with so many other things but I was scared to actually go golfing. I finished, and I had a few good shots when I reminded myself to breathe!
Are you going to sit with yourself and allow yourself this space to grow from your own resistance? Or are you just going to pass by this and look to external things to fill your inner world? Choice is yours, it’s time to put up or shut up. If you chose not to descend then thats on you, take responsibility for it. Don’t blame or judge others for their achievement in unlocking their self and their potential. Jealousy is a bitch, don’t be one too.
Today was a 8 1/2.