Support

So I have determined the thing that I am manifesting is support. This can come from friends, my partner, clients, and family. I am working towards recognizing that I am being supported and am allowing myself to accept said support. That being said I went for a walk with a friend of mine. It was great because we got to discuss everything, and all during it I was able to give support to her. She being a fellow traveler in the same struggles I face it felt great being able to help her, and for her to listen for me. 

During the lockdown I went through all the things I fear, from abandonment, to Boredom, to isolation, to being left behind and left out. I felt everything. The thing I didn’t recognize is now. As each thing came up for me I was able to feel it fully. And that is what I want you to do. Do you notice something coming up for you? It can be a new thing or it can be something that seems to repeat itself. I want you to fully feel that feeling but not just get so angry you start screaming. There has to be a mindfulness to it. When you become mindful of what is truly being felt there can be a transition after. The night my sister left me I truly felt the emotions. I cried so hard that I was shaking. It was the most intense feeling I have had yet, and I asked my friend to come over because I needed support. This is what I mean, allow yourself to feel the feeling fully, then if you are up for it seek out support. That can be from others or it can be from yourself.

Asking for support can be hard, because when you are in the heat of feeling overwhelmed, saddened, angered, we don’t know how to be supported. And perhaps the other person doesn’t have a clue on what to do. This is when communication is vital, for me my friend being there for me and sitting with me as I cried was enough. She listened to me, and then tried to make me laugh after. That kind of support was so special for me because she drove out without any kind of hesitation and was there. It made me feel so worthy and loved, and it allowed me to support myself in a way. I found myself able to move forward after that in a way that I never have before. Why? Because I knew that no matter what I had someone who had my back, who loved me even in that darkness, who was there and gave me everything I needed in that moment. 

So I challenge you to find what you need. It can be support, honesty, love, acceptance, and find ways that you already have it in your life. By acknowledging that it’s already surrounding you when you have need of it most that is when you will have no doubts. I know now how loved I am and supported I am, and that gives me room to grow inside. To take back my power and start supporting what I need.

Today was a 9!