Feeling Sick
Yesterday was a real hard day for me. I went into work and left early because I wasn’t feeling well at all. Not Covid so relax. Wound up spending the day with doctors which is my favorite thing to do. Not! But it taught me just how precious our health really is.
When was the last time you felt under the weather? Do you remember the aches in the body, the feelings in your head, the pressure? Remember wishing to just get better already? It’s like we take for granted at times our own mortality, believing we are these titans of life. Invincible. Then when one thing starts to collapse underneath us we look around and think I’m dying. Maybe that dramatic but you get what I’m saying? Our health we don’t seem to concentrate on in this society. Instead we shovel down extra large big gulps, shovel a bag of bom chicka pop corn down our guts (I did this just today.) and act surprised when oh shit something might be wrong with your kidneys.
So why don’t we take better care of ourselves? Is it the chemical dependencies on sugar or our own minds playing tricks on us that make us go for another bite. Is there a way out of this mindless noshing(eating) or are we doomed to fail from the start? Is that mindless droned into since day one of school? Starting with getting graded? Hear me out, I listened to a podcast based on how grades are ruining our happiness today and it was so enlightening. It made me really think about how we stress ourselves out just to get an A that will do nothing for us? Why? Because of fear of punishment (failure) or rewards (outside validation) We go to school to learn things that we are told to learn because we need to know yet we never use it in adulthood. We torture ourselves to get good grades sacrificing our love of really learning for a sub learning extrinsic desire.
How does this get associated with what we eat and how we get sick? Well in school we are forced into a state of constant underlying stress. What happens our cortisol rises, increasing heart rate and blood pressure. To counterbalance it insulin is like slow down, but you are in this state of stress, will I pass my test? Did I do the assignment right that you stress eat. What do you grab? A bag of chips or unhealthy processed foods because you don’t have time to cook cause your so busy studying. That in turn creates more depression, more anxiety and suicidal tendencies because we are learning crap we don’t care about to impress people who won’t care. So grades only stress you out and are a way to control the population. Either you stress yourself out to get the A or you stress yourself out to pass, or you have the A and you can’t go below that or so on. It’s madness how our education system is making drones instead of innovators, dreamers, creatives, and allowing freedom of choice. Straight from school you are given no choices in figuring out who you are and how you learn or function. You are told to get A’s in a world that is filled with nonsense learning, and then we wonder why kids have no idea what they want to be. We kick the very uniqueness out of them with every grade we shove down their throat. You are only average, you are above average. You fail. You failed again.
Wow this totally got out of my hands today. I equated sickness with our education system, that has to tell you something. I met someone in their 20’s who didn’t know how to write a check. I thought to myself how can we keep condoning an education system that fails our tiny humans to live in the real world. What we truly need is to change the culture around education, only then will we be able to create less stress and anxiety in the world. I think it’s time we take these old outdated systems and challenge the world to create mindfulness in learning, in education, in how we eat, in our physical bodies, in our lives and relationships. That would be a world of forward thinking and happiness.
Today was a 4 1/2. Spent a good portion of my day at the doctor. Hopefully they tell me things tomorrow.