What makes you tick?

Inside us is a this turntable that is spinning. Its this driving force that continues to keep us striving. But what do you need in order to get that turntable breaking out some sick records? Is there something that you need inside yourself that you have neglected? Do you need external power to create momentum? Everyone believes it comes just from you and yes it is part of you but think about this quarantine. Did you need social interactions? Did you go through social withdrawal and battle depression and anxiety and all sorts of madness? Well thats because we are social creatures. 

Human beings need others or else we decend into madness. Look at inmates in isolation, its a form of torture. We crave to be a part of something and we all have different reasons for that. Whether its love, acceptance, motivation, competition we all require some outside force to allow us to create internal peace. 

For me I have always been independent. I have done a lot by myself and solo. And now I am at a place where I feel so secure in myself that I want my external world to match it. To be a part of something bigger then myself and create a solid foundation of loyalty, love and support to feel like I have those who have my back. What keeps me going is family and friends, yet the dysfunction of them has left me trying to harness more power in myself. But the end results of what I hope to achieve requires a community of people. I get motivation and momentum from others energy. Sure I harness my own power and do plenty with my own force but have you ever walked into a concert and the energy of the room moves you? Thats what I am looking for energy and drive of others. That makes me unstoppable! 

So what is it that allows you to go towards your goals. Do you have such a solid foundation of love and support from your external world that you see that your power comes from you? Sure yes part of it is you, but that other part is nurture. Just like you are what you eat, you become what was impressed upon you unless you break the cycles. Which is what I have spent the past 3 years breaking. Each one of those lies I told myself and that is why I am secure in who I am. But what would allow you to reach maximum potential? Do you need a friend to talk and bounce ideas off of, or maybe a colleague? Maybe you need a mentor or a guide to help you figure out how to go about it. Maybe you just need to practice and keep failing yourself. Whatever your process know it’s fucking okay. You don’t always need to be on point along your journey you just have to accept where you are at. That is how you become secure in you, by accepting where you are at. 

Today was a 10! Great day filled with golf, friends, donuts and fire!